alwiz thought its nicer to be with someone who loves you than u love him. But realised its not as "xin Fu" as i tink. What Weeling said is true, coz I dun like him as much, I will feel indifferent to whatever he had done for me. No matter how hard he tries, the feelings is juz not there. Dunno what situation am I getting myself into. Should have been abit clearer about my own feelings. Rejection is so hard to say. Guilt of hurting someone, fear of losing an opportunity, missing the right one. Dun settle for the second. Im clear of what I want now. Dun wanna go into relationship for the sake of feeling tired of staying single. Dun wanna end up hurting others and myself.Have to put a stop to it, no matter how hard it is to do it.

im back!!!

working nite shift today, so have all the time in the afternoon to really start blogging again. So lets update u guys what i've been busy with. Juz came back from JB with my colleagues, bought alot of mooncakes.But those cant last till mooncake festival haaaa...

This year's burfday wish is to find my Mr Right soon, abit sian of stayin single liao, sort of lonely especially during christmas or wat when all ya frenx are hanging out with their bf.

Am doing very well at work, at least that's wat i tink. Im currently training at a new dpt (biochemistry), initially couldnt adapt with colleagues there but its getting better now. boss is still tryin to train me in bone marrow transplant proceduers to take over my seniors who are both leaving for further studies. Am taking over their portfolios too, getting busier but feel that at least im getting recognised n job has becum more meaningful to me.

In conclusion, im a happy gal now=)

havent been blogging for quite some time, nth interesting did happen mah. Suppose to go Mt Kinabalu in March, then juz realised its gonna cost RM1200, have to give up.

Dye my hair ytd, new look new start.Abit bored.

Wonder if you guys have the same feeling.When u reach home after work, though u r tired but u dun feel like sleeping right away, feel its a waste of your precious "after work" time to sleep. That happens to me, but I will alwiz regret sleeping late when I drag myself out of my bed the next morning.

Its been reali warm and stuffy lately.cant stand the weather.

Wisdom

tooth

hurts !!!!

Been working 2 consecutive night shift while having fever. Good news is that I lost about 2kg over 4 days. Looking forward to my payday on friday!!!

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First half of my work day I was in really good mood. But haiz this incident ruined my rest of the day. was trying to register the received specimens from the wards when I realised that 1 bag had the request form without the specimen. Began searching high and low for the missing specimens, even my dpt head went through the rubbish bins.Found nothing. The F***** ward insisted they sent down the form with the specimens!!! F***** good at denying.Now it became MY PROBLEM!!! As if I was the one who lost the specimen. Felt so angry and scared and nervous.haiz why is it alwiz me to encounter such things. Working in hospital environment will have to face such issues, F**** sick of these troubles. These few weeks the workload is realli hell. Still have to "serve" those nurses and doctors. F**** them all. Expect the lab to answer their call in 3 rings. What about them!!! I can call for 20Min and still they refuse to answer my call. What on earth is wrong with the lab management. They don't by abit care for the welfare of their lab employees. When such issue arised its ALWIZ the lab's fault. Why cant it be that the ward realli forgot to send the specimen!!! Now wonder my colleagues told me the only thing good about my hospital is the colleagues, anything else is no worth you staying behind. The management wanna calculate every min that we have worked, making sure we dun slack or work lesser hours than expected. But what about the everyday OTs we did. I alwiz have to stay behind 30min or more to finish the work. Juz too much for the current manpower and facility.haiz...cant tell parents about these problems, dun wanna worry them.Felt better after throwing all these grudges into my blog.phew.

pictures from Genting trip

Juz came back from Genting. It was generally fun, like the theme park over there but was realli sad that I got dizzy very easily thus some 360 degrees fun rides I cant take. Had a great weekend slacking there with colleagues. Where to go next? mmm somewhere near like Batam or JB mayB.

Ever since my brother went off to NS, feel quite lonely without him around at home. Am glad he is coping well in NS.

After watching "Kisarazu Cat's Eyes" drama series I started to get interested in Sho Sakurai from Arashi. He is damn cool.

die die die...been skipping gym again...nxt week muz meet up with yaching to gym.dunno wanna join aerobic class ornot.

Today I will be doing my first night shift duty, woooo really nervous. Wish me the best of luck!

Been really busy working, but managed to have a long wkend resting at home. Gonna start my first night shift on this coming Thursday, really excited and nervous about it coz I will be alone managing the whole department. Nonetheless I will work hard. Am going to Genting during the wkend with my colleagues, hope to have a nice break from my routine working schedule. Been enjoying work and life, learning from mistakes and beginning to act more responsibly. Hope to start more alert during work and stop making mistakes. haaa need to get back to gym to workout, been skipping gym for quite sometime. Really wanted to go to GuangZhou with colleagues in October, wonder if I can manged to save up that much $ ornot. If not Thailand will be nice too heeee.

Skipped work today. Been out late last nite for KTV, too tired to wake up this morning. Kind of in a rather down mood lately, cant find the enthusiasm to go for work anymore. It all starts with the mistake I made at work. Lost my confidence in working, worried when I will make another grave mistake. Taking a step back and think about it, I never did take my work seriously. Never initiate to find out more about my job, did things half heartedly. Though i enjoyed working with my colleagues, the work itself is plain boring. Wonder what have I been doing for the past 5 months. What did I learn. Currently am still under probation and yet I committed such a big mistake. Have no confidence in securing my job. Meiyi asked if I wanna try a job opening at her company, but I turned down the offer. I'm not sure what I want right now. First time feeling so sick of my life. Such a dull colourless life. Dunno what to look forward to everyday. No holidays, working for infinity. Sucks. My god, how am I gonna endure and bear through all these for the rest of my life. I HATE working non stop. life sucks.